Title: Hate List
Author: Jennifer Brown
Publisher: Little, Brown Books for Young Readers
Source: Purchased via Amazon
Publisher Date: September 1st 2009
Pages: 405 pages
Rating: 4/5 Ratings
Five months ago, Valerie Leftman's boyfriend, Nick, opened fire on their school cafeteria. Shot trying to stop him, Valerie inadvertently saved the life of a classmate, but was implicated in the shootings because of the list she helped create. A list of people and things she and Nick hated. The list he used to pick his targets.
Now, after a summer of seclusion, Val is forced to confront her guilt as she returns to school to complete her senior year. Haunted by the memory of the boyfriend she still loves and navigating rocky relationships with her family, former friends and the girl whose life she saved, Val must come to grips with the tragedy that took place and her role in it, in order to make amends and move on with her life.
“Just like there's always time for pain, there's always time for healing.”
When I first heard about The Hate List. I was extremely hesitant to pick it up and review it for my blog. This is such a touchy subject these days in a world where school shootings and mass killings seem to happen daily. Eventually, the media and news coverage moves past the shooting, chases the next big news break. The victims and perpetrators are forgotten in some sense. The people affected and the children don't have that luxury. They still hold those memories, feelings,, and wounds inflicted on that fateful day. This book challenges those attitudes and dares to examine why the shooter decided to cause such a tragedy.
I knew to go into The Hate List that it was going to be extremely rough. I also realized quickly that it was going to be a very impactful book as I began to dive into this story. This novel is gritty and heartbreaking. It kept me on such an emotional rollercoaster ride. With that being said it isn't at all graphic or violent. It deals primarily with life after the shooting. This may be a book about shootings, but it is also just about a normal everyday group of teenagers. There are references to things that some teenagers try during highschool, such as drugs and alcohol. Not to an excess point, but enough to let you know that these were experimenters. These kids were bullied, pushed past their breaking point, and for one he decided to take things into his own hands. His own sense of justice (in his mind) if you will.
The Hate List isn't about the plot though, it is about the characters and the people they portray. While this book I don't believe is based on any one school, or one shooting, it oddly resonates with a lot of schools today. The bullying, the isolation, and the thoughts these kids had, often affect so many high schoolers today. I was blown away while reading this book at the sheer reality in the words contained in this novel. When the main character describes hating high school and the girl that taunts her so often, I could really relate to that.
Let's talk about the main characters for a bit. The narrator is named Valerie, she is a typical high school kid. She has a boyfriend named Nick, who ends up being the school shooter. He has past away, and she is forced to pick up the pieces. Nick and Valerie weren't exactly popular in school, they were the outcasts and the underdogs. Valerie made the "hate list", and Nick encouraged it. It was a list that contained the names of everyone they blamed for their pain and ultimate suffering. Mostly it just had people that bullied them. They wrote on and on about who they hated. Eventually one day Nick decides he is going to put an end to all of this. He decides he is going to shot several people on the "list". The hate inside him seemed to spiral out of control and it came to a terrifying head. It is important to mention that Valerie never intended to have any person on the "hate list" killed.
She didn't want to kill anyone. Although the morning of the shooting her bully broke her MP3 player. She went to her boyfriend Nick and made an off-hand comment about wanting to "kill" her. While she didn't mean it and it was just a phrase, Nick decided to take action on that comment. This plot point made me ponder several things. I had to put the book down for a bit. I never realized how many times in everyday life we use phrases about death, "killing someone", or violence of any kind. Sure we don't mean it but it really makes you think about the words or perhaps choices that we end up making. When stepping back and examining a novel at this magnitude it really shows you the power your words have on other people.
I really can not say enough good things about the characters in this book. They are just so real and jump off the page. The dynamics between them were so real and genuine it really allowed me as a reader to immerse myself into the book, feel the uncomfortableness and pain the characters felt. Sometimes the sorrow of moments just poured off the pages of this novel.
The Hate List had such a profounding emotional impact on me. I rarely cry when reading and I lost track of how many times I cried reading this novel. This needs to be required reading in schools. Kids need to see the potential consequences of their actions. I wasn't expecting so much beauty to come out of such a hard-hitting book. This is where the young adult genre needs to be, it needs to be impactful to read about. This is a hauntingly familiar tale. While it is the story of tragedy, it is also the story of bravery, betrayal, and forgiveness. This book will probably stay with me for the rest of my life. I honestly cannot imagine forgetting such a memorable book.